Work slump

Very unhappy with work right now and not sure what to do. I feel undervalued, unappreciated and not respected, not by my boss but others. I work in very cliquey, blunt, point fingers atmosphere. It's been like this since day one and I've been there 9 years so not sure what I'm e expecting. Sometimes…

Reflection and a New Year

A new year begins... I don't want to say I'm glad to close a year as I don't want to wish away time, but I'm happy to start a new journey. 2020 was not awful for me and my family and for that I am extremely grateful. I have continued to work from home since…

Introspection

I've been doing a lot of soul searching over the last few months. I often struggle with many emotions and sometimes I just don't know how to deal with them. I've had very strong cravings to drink but I have not. I used alcohol to numb my emotions and calm me down. I still need…

I need to work on me

I need to work on my self confidence and not beat myself up. I say horrible things to myself like I'm a bad mother, awful wife, fat cow, an idiot. I constantly berate myself and feel like I've failed at me. I know this is not healthy. I also worry about everything and anything. I've…

Life

So many changes in this crazy world we live in now. Now that it's summer we're trying to get out more and in addition to sunscreen and beach paraphernalia we must remember to pack plenty of masks and hand sanitizer. I wonder if we'll ever be without masks, 2 years maybe? We're trying to enjoy…

COVID Birthday

Today is my daughters birthday, she's 9. Quite a bit different this year, no friend party or family party. My in laws are coming to drop off a gift and my SIL and family may swing by when we have a fire tomorrow night. Zoom meetings will be done with grandparents this weekend. Such a…

Good times ahead (fingers crossed)

Well I'm not gonna lie 2020 has started out rough. We've been fighting various sickness and now my daughter has the flu. She had a 103.2 temp on Friday. I am WFH today which is difficult. Work isn't very sympathetic. I have no idea what we'll do tomorrow. This weekend we were also without power…

Work sucks.

Crappy day here. I should be going to the gym now but I'm getting pizza... priorities. I'll tell you I cant wait for Thanksgiving and those 4 days off. I am burnt out again and need a break. It's not worth going into. I just feel like the same shit happens day in and day…