On the edge

Another rough day here, feel like I'm so close to the edge. I'm already very stressed and more little things keep piling. I had a meltdown at dinner tonight wanted to throw pans then storm out and buy alcohol. I don't get this stressed to often but I feel like I'm stuck in a shit…

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Romancing the drink

I am in a foul mood, I have been in this state of mind for about a month now. I don't deal well with stress, I want to bury my head in the sand or hide in my closet. I fantasize about quitting my job and working 3rd shift at Panera and baking bread, how…

Stress and not drinking

If I was still drinking I'd be well on my way to annihilation right now. What a whopper of a week. I still don't have a great way of dealing with stress and anxiety. I must admit the thought of getting drunk right now is very pleasant. I just want to escape all this adrenalin…

First days of summer

It's my favorite time of year. I love the warmth and extra daylight hours. It's pretty homeostasis is my world. We had a great vacation to Disney in May and have a mini vacay planned before labor day. My daughter's done at school and in camp. The days slip by so fast, I have to…

Counting down the days…

Tomorrow will be one month til a real vacation. I am counting down the days. A weird wave of sickness is going through the house right now. I've been nauseous and had a pounding headache and pressure all week. I took a sick day Monday. Today I got the call just as I pulled into…

Snow storm

We're getting a crap load of snow again, third time in two weeks. Oh I am so ready for vacation in 2 months. Tonight/ tomorrow could dump about 18 inches of snow. I am hoping we do not lose power. We lost it for four days and then two days later another half day. I…

Day 730

730 days= two years since I stopped drinking. I can't believe it's been this long. I am proud of myself. Hubby has gone the same amount of time. He doesn't have any problems with drinking but stopped to support me. In other news we were hit with a nor'easter. No snow but tons of rain…

A Me Day

Today is all about me. I took a vacation day and I'm going to do whatever a want. I don't really have to adhere to schedules and can go at my own place. I plan on going the o the mall and doing a little sewing. I think everyone needs a me day to recharge…