I am in a foul mood, I have been in this state of mind for about a month now. I don’t deal well with stress, I want to bury my head in the sand or hide in my closet. I fantasize about quitting my job and working 3rd shift at Panera and baking bread, how glamorous. I don’t want to deal with people, I want a job with responsibilities. I am so apathetic. There is no passion for my job. Is there for anyone?
Driving home tonight by the thousand of liquor stores I pass daily, I see Apothetic Red is on sale. I am so tempted. I wasn’t a huge red drinker but the spicy bouquet is calling to me, especially with the October chill and Halloween around the corner. I love Halloween btw. I know what I’m doing, I am quite aware. The wine is my old lover. I’m on a slippery slope so they say. I usually don’t think much about alcohol but in times of stress or random change in seasons it always pops up.
I haven’t figured how to deal with all this pressure. I am doing some things for me, taking a pottery class and doing more sewing. A creative outlet always helps. Going to try to not think of drinking because it’s pointless.