Sober Birthday

Today is my day, 1095 of them to be exact. I can't believe it's been three years. I'm proud of myself. Today was a good day. It snowed over a foot last night and school was cancelled. I was able to work from home to be with my daughter. I actually did work so I…

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What is it about this time of year?

It's like clockwork, every year I start dreaming of tropical vacations right around this time. I looked at a post from last year and wouldn't you know, it was titled "I need a vacation." These last few weeks have been like a pressure cooker at work. I'm having some pretty bad tension headaches that won't…

Weighing in

It's been three weeks on this somewhat low carb diet, I've lost about 5 pounds. That's a start, I don't know what I was expecting to lose 30 pounds in three weeks- impossible unless this is an infomercial. This is freaking hard. I've had basically no fruit, zero grains and no starchy veggies like potato…

Goals

2018 was really a good year. I got outside my comfort zone and took two classes- sewing and pottery, which helped revamp my creativity. I have another pottery class starting in a couple weeks and I'm still sewing. My goal this year is to keep up with the creative outlets and push to make healthier…

Christmas Blues

I'm not feeling very merry, super stressed and overwhelmed. I was so ahead of the game in early November with the majority of gifts done but chaos ensued this week with running around getting gifts for all my co workers. I honestly feel it's pointless. Do they need more slippers, body lotion, chocolates, coffee or…

On the edge

Another rough day here, feel like I'm so close to the edge. I'm already very stressed and more little things keep piling. I had a meltdown at dinner tonight wanted to throw pans then storm out and buy alcohol. I don't get this stressed too often but I feel like I'm stuck in a shit…

Stress and not drinking

If I was still drinking I'd be well on my way to annihilation right now. What a whopper of a week. I still don't have a great way of dealing with stress and anxiety. I must admit the thought of getting drunk right now is very pleasant. I just want to escape all this adrenalin…

First days of summer

It's my favorite time of year. I love the warmth and extra daylight hours. It's pretty homeostasis is my world. We had a great vacation to Disney in May and have a mini vacay planned before labor day. My daughter's done at school and in camp. The days slip by so fast, I have to…