Things have been rough. My daughter turn 12 in about a week. I feel like she's a different person now. I started seeing changes when she was 9 and over the past year has been a rollercoaster. She had a formal evaluation and she has adhd, depression, anxiety and is on the spectrum for autism.…
I have no idea what I’m doing…
I thought the hardest thing I'd ever do was quit drinking but that was before my kid turned into a preteen. Raising a child right now is driving me insane. I'm still sober and still married but I'm losing my mind. My kid is 11 and struggling with overwhelming anxiety and fear. She's in counseling…
2022- A New Year
I haven't written for so long, I think I bottle a lot of things up. 2021 was a tough year. My husband had 3 surgeries and was out of commission for most of the summer. It was awful for him because he had about 6 weeks of bed rest. Because of that, everything fell on…
Coming out of isolation
I'm fully vaccinated now and things are really opening up. After 14 months of working from home I'm going back to the office full time tomorrow. I am very anxious and stressed about this. I am not worried about contracting covid but really starting over again. I would much rather stay home. Don't get me…
Today
Today is my sober anniversary of 5 years. I'm so happy I took the steps and kept trying. Life isn't always easy but it's a heck of a lot better sober. I haven't got a lot of sleep the last couple nights so felt very jittery, foggy and headachey today, felt a lot like a…
Work slump
Very unhappy with work right now and not sure what to do. I feel undervalued, unappreciated and not respected, not by my boss but others. I work in very cliquey, blunt, point fingers atmosphere. It's been like this since day one and I've been there 9 years so not sure what I'm e expecting. Sometimes…
Reflection and a New Year
A new year begins... I don't want to say I'm glad to close a year as I don't want to wish away time, but I'm happy to start a new journey. 2020 was not awful for me and my family and for that I am extremely grateful. I have continued to work from home since…
Introspection
I've been doing a lot of soul searching over the last few months. I often struggle with many emotions and sometimes I just don't know how to deal with them. I've had very strong cravings to drink but I have not. I used alcohol to numb my emotions and calm me down. I still need…
I need to work on me
I need to work on my self confidence and not beat myself up. I say horrible things to myself like I'm a bad mother, awful wife, fat cow, an idiot. I constantly berate myself and feel like I've failed at me. I know this is not healthy. I also worry about everything and anything. I've…
Life
So many changes in this crazy world we live in now. Now that it's summer we're trying to get out more and in addition to sunscreen and beach paraphernalia we must remember to pack plenty of masks and hand sanitizer. I wonder if we'll ever be without masks, 2 years maybe? We're trying to enjoy…
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