Strange Days

It's been a strange few weeks.  I feel like I've been walking around in a fog and don't know what I'm doing anymore or who I am, not that I really did anyway, but I do feel less like myself.  I've been sick for a couple weeks and also dealing with severe insomnia.  There is…

I want to run

I want to run far, far away from here.  I need a break, I need to be by myself with no responsibilities.  No work, no boss, no email, no husband, no parents.  I want my daughter though, I can't run away from her. I've been sick, I've been tired, I've had enough.  I really want…

Beyond Stressed

I am so beyond stressed I don't know what to do.  Last night I was so hyped up and couldn't calm down, deep breaths wouldn't even help.  Then I woke up at 1 am and was up the rest of the night. Today I almost had a full on panic attack. My heart was hurting…

365 Days

Today is my sober 1 year anniversary.  I made it.  It's been tough, I won't lie, but well worth it. My relationship with my family is so much better, because I'm fully present, not worrying about the next drink. Even though I've made it this far, I still get scared. I don't know yet that…

Moving along

Feel like I'm in a rut but still moving forward.  I think I'm extremely burnt out with my job and feel zero passion for it.  Getting another job would likely be less money and could be more responsibility, so I'm staying for now, but not really happy. My husband was laid off the end of…

Happy New Year

I was really looking forward to a long weekend but have come down with the first winter's cold.  My NYE has consisted of chicken soup, tea and honey and lots of tv.  I have been binge watching HGTV all day, my dream is now to flip houses for a living. So it's that time again,…