Sober Birthday

Today is my day, 1095 of them to be exact. I can't believe it's been three years. I'm proud of myself. Today was a good day. It snowed over a foot last night and school was cancelled. I was able to work from home to be with my daughter. I actually did work so I…

Romancing the drink

I am in a foul mood, I have been in this state of mind for about a month now. I don't deal well with stress, I want to bury my head in the sand or hide in my closet. I fantasize about quitting my job and working 3rd shift at Panera and baking bread, how…

Snow storm

We're getting a crap load of snow again, third time in two weeks. Oh I am so ready for vacation in 2 months. Tonight/ tomorrow could dump about 18 inches of snow. I am hoping we do not lose power. We lost it for four days and then two days later another half day. I…

Day 730

730 days= two years since I stopped drinking. I can't believe it's been this long. I am proud of myself. Hubby has gone the same amount of time. He doesn't have any problems with drinking but stopped to support me. In other news we were hit with a nor'easter. No snow but tons of rain…

Almost slipped

I swear I almost drank tonight.  I was in a not caring about anything state and wanting to tell the universe to f off.  I could almost taste the alcohol in my mouth.  I sat outside the strip mall outdide Wines and More debating what to do with tears in my eyes and reciting the…

Contemplation

I am contemplating getting my but to an aa meeting this week.   Why contemplating, because I'm scared,  ridiculous, isn't it?  I haven't been to a meeting in over 6 years and the times I went I did not have a lot of sobriety under my belt.  I do feel more confident now,  so that is…

I am an addict

It's taken over a year to really, truly admit I'm an alcoholic and still saying that scares me.  Admitting that is no going back and a part of me still wants to pretend that someday far off into the sunset when my child maybe hits 16 or 18 I can drink.  Who am I fooling…

500 Days

My sober app informed me I'm on day 500. Sometimes I can't believe I made it this far. Often times I try no to think of alcohol it makes things easier.  I've had some cravings this summer, but nothing too intense.  I am trying too live healthy.  It's been about a month with no beef,…