I am in a foul mood, I have been in this state of mind for about a month now. I don't deal well with stress, I want to bury my head in the sand or hide in my closet. I fantasize about quitting my job and working 3rd shift at Panera and baking bread, how…
We're getting a crap load of snow again, third time in two weeks. Oh I am so ready for vacation in 2 months. Tonight/ tomorrow could dump about 18 inches of snow. I am hoping we do not lose power. We lost it for four days and then two days later another half day. I…
I'm not going to lie and pretend it's all unicorns and rainbows (my kid watches a lot of My Little Pony), some times I really wanna drink. I craved some Sauvingnon Blanc tonight. I find myself just sighing and tense. I'd love to zone out with a glass or two. Nothing really bad happened today…
I swear I almost drank tonight. I was in a not caring about anything state and wanting to tell the universe to f off. I could almost taste the alcohol in my mouth. I sat outside the strip mall outdide Wines and More debating what to do with tears in my eyes and reciting the…
I made it home from my business trip from the mid-west. Everything went well and it was very pretty, I'd go back for a vacation. I did make it through another dinner without a drink, had an O'douls though. I am finding myself obsessed with alcohol. I guess I'm having dry drunk syndrome. I'm so…
Pretty sure my life is quite lame. When I was younger I wanted to be a grown up, now that I'm here, I'd like to go back. Let's just say my life is not highly exciting right now. As I was writing this, I just had to get up to chase my neurotic dog who…
Well the title pretty much says it all. Lately I find myself consumed with thoughts of alcohol. I want to drink really bad, I know I can't and I'm extremely pissed off and mad. Tonight I wanted to stop of at the store for some wine. I wanted to just have one. I thought through…
The voice is back it says, I want alcohol. It's like a siren calling me. I can almost taste it on my tounge. The cravings are really bad. I feel like saying so what, I'm done. I want to be able to relax on a Friday night and have a drink. I can almost feel…
Today is my sober 1 year anniversary. I made it. It's been tough, I won't lie, but well worth it. My relationship with my family is so much better, because I'm fully present, not worrying about the next drink. Even though I've made it this far, I still get scared. I don't know yet that…
The week is winding down and soon Christmas will be here. The last couple of days at work should go smoothly, we have a company luncheon tomorrow and Friday the boss will bring our department out for lunch. Friday I will be bringing in gifts for my co workers. As always, I am completely…
