Where am I going now and what will I do? Trying to figure out my next steps in life. I’m feeling good in this sober lifestyle. So much seems to have opened up since I stopped drinking and I’m talking about little things.
Last weekend we spent about 3 hours outside in the sun planting flowers. It was great, my daughter loved digging the holes and watering the flowers. Before I never would have partaken in this. The whole process would have annoyed me and I would have snuck inside for sips of wine. Now I am enjoying really being there and present for my family. Every night my daughter keeps saying how much she loves me and that I’m her best friend, it melts my heart.
At work I am clearer and more able to deal with day to day stress. For instance, I loathe talking on the phone and conference calls with customers. I get very nervous and worry I’ll say the wrong thing or sound stupid. So far this week I’ve had 3 conference calls and it’s been fine. If drinking, my anxiety would have been through the roof.
So now that I am clearer, I am starting to find out who I am again. Instead of being so focused on de-stressing with alcohol and when I can drink to “relax” , I’m actually doing things with my life. I’m getting back into hobbies and spending quality time with my family. I’m feeling confident with my choices and good about myself.
So what’s next? Not sure, but I know I’m on the right path.